Do you tell the truth when someone asks how you are doing? Or does the conversation go something like this?
Person-How are you doing?
You-Fine, how are you doing?
Why do we say that we are fine when we are not fine?
For me, it's such an automatic response to the question that I don't even blink when I tell the lie. In fact, it's such an automatic response to the question that it doesn't even register as a lie until later. And I wonder why I didn't tell the truth later. Why didn't I open up about the rough day I had or how I'm struggling with Mark?
It's not like I try to portray this perfect image of myself. I'm not one of those moms who act like they have it all figured out and don't struggle. (If you don't believe me, just read this blog regularly or ask my friends.) When I'm struggling with the girls getting out of bed during naps, I ask for help. Potty training advice, I ask for help. How do I get my twins to stop fighting all the time, yep I asked for help. Although I haven't found an answer yet.
But when it comes to opening up about how I feel, I clam up and say I'm fine. I don't want to tell people the truth about how hard some days are with three kids under the age of 5. Or how hard it is when Mark's legs cramp up and he screams for hours. I don't want to complain or deal with people's reactions so I just say I'm fine.
Even though I'm not.