I never wanted to be a mom.
When I was a teenager, my parents got a divorce. My mom moved us across the country and her new company offered to send her to college as part of her salary package. It was my mom’s dream to finish her college degree and she happily accepted their offer. This left me to help raise my brother at the age of 15.
So by the time I was in college, I felt like I had already raised a child and I had zero intentions of having one of my own. It didn’t help that I liked to pick losers to date and I couldn’t picture myself raising a child with said losers. I was going to be a career woman and maybe get married in my 30s.
And then it happened.
I met my husband when I was 23 years old and I fell helplessly in love with him. I was anxious for him to propose to me after six months of dating. It took him another 8 months to actually ask and I was ready to start my life as his wife. And as the saying goes, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes a baby in the baby carriage. Only it didn’t happen like I planned. I never planned on having to do IVF in order to get pregnant.
But I did and during the infertility process I realized just how much I wanted to be a mom. And not just a mom, but a stay at home mom. I sometimes think its funny how life turns out nothing like you planned and yet is exactly the life you want and love.