Jun 19, 2013

I've Been Lying to Myself

I've been lying to myself and I didn't even realize it until I got off the phone today and started crying. I know that my tears are partly from being overstressed and tired from our move and partly to do with the conversation. I had no idea how hard moving across the country far away from my support system would be. And I'll be really honest, I really miss my mommy. Are you supposed to miss your mommy when you're a mommy?

Back to the tears

Two weeks ago Mark failed his hearing test at school. For whatever reason his previous hearing and vision screens were not sent over with the three inch folder that is his file from Nevada. And even after getting the results, the school district wants him formally tested again since he failed the test here in NC.

I said it was no big deal, this is just the government and they are not exactly know for their efficiency.

I said it was no big deal, he's passed before.

I said it was no big deal that his teacher mentioned that he doesn't respond to his name being called in the classroom. (I'm sure one of the causes for concern after he failed his hearing test)

I lied and said it was no big deal.

Clearly I lied since scheduling his hearing evaluation made me cry. I'm pretty confident that he'll pass his third hearing evaluation in three years of life. Yes you read that right, this will be his third one! But I didn't realize that I'm a little worried and stressed about having to go through this again until today.

July 10th needs to get here fast, the waiting is the hardest part.


  1. Welcome to NC. It's got to be so tough to move across the country. I'm sure it will all work out.

  2. Evaluations always stress me out, no matter what they are for!

    Welcome to NC! :)

    1. Thanks, I think the hardest part is the wait. Every time I had to schedule some sort of test there is a long wait for the test and then the wait for the results.


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