Jun 5, 2014

A Beautiful Mess

It was just one of those days.

I woke up at 1:30 in the morning and I didn't fall back asleep. I knew before I even got out of bed that today was going to suck. I also knew within 5 minutes of dealing with my kids that there was no way I was going to get the kids to the bus stop on time unless I yelled and hurried them along. Far too much effort and stress on 2.5 hours of sleep. I was determined not to yell this morning since I know tired mommy has one ugly scream.

I decided to drive them to school and save myself the aggravation. It didn't work, I was still aggravated. But I didn't yell so it was worth it.

I discovered that Molly peed on the floor in the kitchen when I stepped in the pee. Which was everywhere including the pee-pee footprints leading down the hall to her bedroom.

Sigh

What to know who didn't make lunch and snacks for school the night before?

These are the mornings that scream "buy lunch today!" My daughter was thrilled, buying school lunch is a huge treat in this house.

I accidentally gave Molly regular Rice Krispies instead of the gluten free ones, thankfully she was on top of it and informed me of my mistake.

And the bickering begins.

Why can't they just eat breakfast in peace?

You need toothpaste to brush your teeth. Put on your shoes. Yes Mark they have to match. Sure you can wear socks with sandals as long as they are the same sandals.

And we were out the door. My nerves were shot and I was ready to cry. Have you ever had one of those days when you're so tired all you want to do is cry? That is where I was when I locked the front door. I was fighting tears of exhaustion and the urge to scream at Mark not to drag his sister's backpack down the steps. Just when I thought I was going to lose it Isabella asked me to take her picture.


I turned around and saw her posing like this and I was no longer on the verge of losing it.

Finally I was able to see the beauty in my morning among the mess. Sometimes it's hard to find but it's always there, just waiting for me to focus on it.

I need to focus more on the beauty that is my life, these moments are only here for a second. The mess, well that will never go away.

4 comments:

  1. Oh man, you totally nailed it. It is SO HARD on mornings like these to not lose it. And I have definitely found that when I am tired EVERYTHING makes me lose it so much faster. Very much related to this!-Ashley

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    1. Thank you. When I'm tired I have to try really hard to remember that they're not trying to upset me. I just don't have the patience when I don't sleep.

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  2. Yes, I think I had years of mornings following insufficient sleep. Sleep is more valuable than anything else, and without it, we just don't function well. If you had a bad morning and your daughter was still able to strike that pose with that beautiful smile, you are doing amazingly well:)

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    1. Ah thanks. You're right sleep is more valuable that getting anything done.

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